Chips/Salsa and my LUMP is getting BIGGER!!!!
Nov 16, 2018
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this is my story and welcome to it we
are actually ready to go out the door I
have to go and pick up my prescription
because the prescription that I have it
can't be called in it has to be like a
physical actual prescription paper and
they can't fax it over to my pharmacy so
now because I have so much time on my
hands we have to go to the actual
doctors to go pick up the actual
physical form and then go take it over
to the pharmacy turn it in for them to
refill my medicine so that is what we
are heading out to do right now and I
had to stop everything and activate my
new debit card because my bank thinks
it's funny to keep sending me new debit
cards like seriously I and when they
send me the new debit cards they send me
a new a new PIN with it so every time
they send me these stupid cards I have
to go and breathe get a new PIN and then
I have to go and have them switch you
back it's so annoying so annoying
so that is what we are going to do right
now is go turn or go get that go turn
that in and then from there I don't know
what else all he has to do I think
that's the only thing I have to do today
though so
no I am super duper tired I did not want
to get up this morning like i sat there
and contemplated all morning oh yes okay
hey anyways to what I was saying I had
someone here to buy a wreath um anyways
so I was so tired I was just like
fighting myself to get out but find that
it's like okay I gotta do this I gotta
get the show on the road so anyways let
there be light
fooey you guys is it just me or what
sorry for my car it looks like a
dumpster right now as much as we live in
our car anyways is it just me or hold on
or is it everybody that deals with these
callers that call from all over the
place I have calls coming from Argentina
from Portland from Salem from Texas for
I could not even start to tell you how
many calls I get from all over the world
congratulations you are number one pick
for our hotel I never put my name in for
a hotel congratulations you want a trip
on a cruise Yeah right
your car warranty is going to expire
last time I checked I don't have a car
warranty oh we can help you you you uh
you fit in the criterias for forgiving
on your student loans I've paid my
student loans off thank you it's like
you guys so what I have been finally
doing and people probably think I have
lost my ever-loving mind
but when I answer the calls to those I
wait till a person actually comes on the
phone and then I scream bloody murder in
my phone to kill their eardrums anyways
they call like such rude times of the
morning and the night and it's like you
guys come on like I don't understand
like are there really people out there
that fall for these scams or is it just
people that literally have enough money
to pay for these people to sit on the
phone and antagonize people and make
them like want to lose their mind oh I
don't know what to do like I
I hate the fact that the cell phones are
now allowed to solicit eight-year phone
numbers out to these type of companies I
think that is so wrong
I think that is so unacceptable I think
that we should still have the choice to
make our phone numbers unavailable or
hidden or whatever we want to do we
should have that option I feel because
they have the option to solicit
eight-hour numbers out and it's just not
fair like I it really irks me because
it's so annoying it is so annoying and
so anyways yeah I am I am highly
frustrated because I get these calls and
they just don't stop and I feel like I'm
alone but I know I'm not because all he
gets him to and he is complaining just
as much as I am but me I'm scared that
I'm gonna eventually throw my phone
because I get so pissed off but yeah
anyways my nails because I took them off
I've been picking picking picking
picking look at them they're back to
having all these stupid sores because I
can't stop picking my cuticles I am the
worst person ever when it comes to
picking my nose so I'm thinking I might
get a set today I bought the ones from
Dollar Tree and I might put those ones
on I don't know we'll see but if not I
think I might stop maybe and get a pair
of the impressed nails but I do need to
do something because that way then I'll
stop picking as long as I have no sign
of some sort I won't pick and I know
I've been asked a few times to do a set
on me so I'm thinking
of maybe trying to do that maybe
depending on what all we're doing today
and how busy we are okay so we went and
picked up the prescription dropped that
off at the pharmacy we went to Safeway I
got some snacks for the kids because
they have oh they have went through all
of their snacks so I stopped by Safeway
and with all their cells
well it came to 3676 I said I saved
$7.22
so 16% I don't know Safeway is really
expensive though have a hard time going
there and shopping because they're just
they're expensive
but for a quick run I feel like going to
Walmart or anything else so I was just
like let's go to Safeway run in and get
them a couple of things just to hold
them through for the next week until we
go do another grocery shopping and now
we stopped at our famous restaurant that
we always go to but we're just getting
the chips and salsa from there for
tonight's dinner because the kids love
their salsa oh you guys I'm so tired and
then I got this coffee plate brighter
than nothing and I went to the one in
West Salem and I ordered the same thing
I get every single time at oh my
goodness whoa you need to sit down and
then I will oMG it's so nasty it was so
so so strong I couldn't do it I was just
like wow so I had to stop off at another
Dutch brothers but they're really good
about fixing on like I mean normally
West Salem always has me like perfect I
just don't know what happened today but
I can't handle like straight black
coffee tastes it just mm-hmm
so I stopped off at the one in Kaiser
and they remade it for me I had to make
them remake it again
because it still wasn't sweet enough so
and like to kill out the coffee so
anyways when did that and now we're home
are you're being rude and I'm not gonna
keep talking over your voice and I said
no because it's you need to be in your
car seat you need to put your seat belt
on now and you do not undo it while
we're in the car now okay then you're
not getting an apple when we get home
then turn around and buckle up anyways
we have like an hour and Jeremiah's
gonna be home so I think I really I'm
gonna go home and lay down for a little
bit because I I'm not feeling very good
today my stomach's kind of upset and I'm
just really tired so I think today I'm
gonna really go home and lay down first
a little bit and take a little bit of a
rest because I think my body is just
honestly getting just way too exhausted
like I think what really is so I'm gonna
go home from here go and load everything
put it all away and then I think I'm
gonna go lay down and take a little nap
let's see if that helps me feel better
because I'm just like my stomach just
feels really nauseous
I just just not feeling very good so
we'll say sure it's just I mean it's
almost tooth well it is 2:30 and I ate
like nine and I just had a bagel so I'm
sure it's probably - I'm hungry and I
have
Coffee on my stomach and nothing else
probably the problem
guys just came home I just put all this
stuff away
my kids are a mean you know what from
you know where I'm talking myself in
Tamara because that's where I want to
set shoes off try and take everything
off
I didn't hear without spoiling anything
I can do that
I conquered something today because
hands or feet you mommy's ever
stay-at-home mommies anyways do you guys
ever feel like you just get suffocated
from your children like you love them to
death and you will do anything for them
but do you ever just feel like oh my god
like go sit down
give me five minutes to breathe today
love my kids
Newburgh made it work right now um I am
sitting here right now I'm gonna eat a
little bit of lunch I got some beans
salsa and this salsa is actually zero
zero calories yeah so really my only
calories are coming from my beans and
I'm only got a half a cup and then my
chips are homemade and they don't fry
them they baked them so so I was so
excited when I found that out because
like oh my gosh like when I'm really in
the mood for like wanting like chips and
salsa and stuff just is like such a
great thing because really in reality my
whole
snack mill whatever you want to call it
really doesn't count much because my
calories are so low and I have so many
to share or sure to eat that in reality
it doesn't honestly it doesn't affect me
so much so anybody that knows me knows
that I absolutely love chips and salsa
that was the last thing that we would be
allowed to work on I would be good
so anyways okay no no no no no no no no
no I'm not gonna have you guys spilling
the beans all over my bed no I gave you
guys apples
sit down Ezra and I don't know why you
have your shoes on anyways
anybody that knows me knows that I could
live on chips and salsa with my beans so
that is what I'm doing so anyways now
that I am have a uh-oh I thought you put
that in my food now that I have a
audience with me yeah to share into this
meal I guess I will close and try and
eat some of my food before it's all gone
obviously it shows what I want tonight
good night everybody
gosh oh good evening we just got done
eating dinner Holly made fajitas
well tree it's called Treo fajita
because it's got carne asada meat shrimp
and chicken and then he puts bell
peppers and onions and all sorts of good
stuff in it and he just puts it all
together and then we just dish off from
like the big platter or whatever and I
did to not have tortillas with mine of
any kind I just ate the meat by itself
and then I had a couple chips not a lot
um I just not feeling very good kind of
told you guys earlier that my stomach
was feeling kind of black and it's been
feeling black all day since I came home
so if it's just pure exhaustion I'm
seriously like pure exhaustion because I
didn't get to come home and take a nap
again today cuz all he had to leave so
of course I had to stay awake so um I
don't know if it's just me being tired
that's making me not feel very good I
mean I'm not running a fever or anything
it's just my stomach just feels kind of
just I just I personally just feel
physically Bluff so I don't know it
could be a mixture of things I'm sure
and it doesn't help that my knee is just
I know it's kind of hard to see but I
just wanted to show you guys the Bulge
that I'm dealing with on the back of my
lake is what's pushing against my
kneecap and that's what's creating the
pain and it's gotten bigger in the last
couple of weeks I am in the process of
fighting for an MRI to find out what's
going on but I just wanted to show you
guys the intensity of why I'm in so much
pain lately killing me it is hurting so
bad I I didn't do exercising today you
guys I didn't I walked through Safeway
the store I walked through the store for
probably 20 minutes max 30 minutes but
by the time I came out into the car oh I
was just like barely being able to move
my leg because it hurts so bad but I
mean I just kept pushing through it I'm
just like come on come on come on
and I excuse me I seen a motor scooter
as soon as I went in I was like Bing
Bing me meaning
I'm like nope nope nope nope nope I just
was like no Amy you're gonna do this
you're just gonna walk because that
might be the only exercise you get today
so I didn't really clean much I just
kind of just took it easy today I need
to really I don't know there's not
really anything we can do at this point
our fingers are crossed our hands are
crossed because I'm waiting my doctor
and a pill for my medical because my
medical declined being able to pay for
physical well not physical therapy sorry
well they did decline physical therapy
too so they just decline physical
therapy they declined me to go to a PT
PT not pediatrician well the doctors
that deal with your bones can't think of
it right off the top of my head because
he they declined me to be able to go and
see that surgeon to check what's going
on with the back of my leg and they
declined an MRI from my doctors so my
doctors like wall they've got to give
you something like we've got to be able
to figure out what is going on and why
were inquiring this pain and so I he is
fighting with them and we're just going
back and forth so hopefully hopefully
we'll soon because I I'm going insane
with this Lake like I really really
really am so hopefully hopefully
hopefully we will figure out what's
going on and go from there and what else
I did a little bit of my room so I hung
up those little where's my finger I hung
up those little hook type things to put
my head head pieces on so I can see them
more clearly and then you guys look I
don't think I have a problem here do you
these are all my his jobs well here is
some of my headbands are like my just
the bonnet underneath there's more
there's more and these are the actual
part that goes over my head to cover and
I've got every color you can imagine in
those and then those the ones that are
up there are more of the underneath
headbands that you guys see when I
decorate and then I redid my table over
here
excuse my water cup but I redid my
little table got my diffuser going which
I love and then I kind of organized up
there's a little bit there's a few more
things I need to do but I am trying to
find what to do with outer if I'm gonna
find it a new home I might find it a new
home and there's the thing that holds
all my makeup they don't know if I'm
gonna keep that or if I'm gonna find a
new home for it and I really need to get
this whole thing under control is so
unorganized right now it is ridiculous
my mirror is a disaster and there's all
my other crap clearly I need to do
something and then look at this horrific
mess look at this these are all boxes
with like okay so those two bags are
full of clothes that I need to go donate
them somewhere these are my sweaters and
this one right here doesn't like to stay
on a hanger it just does not so always
it's falling off this is all my toll for
my wreath making I have nowhere else to
put it so I shove it in there and then
it looks like crap there's my black
jacket fell from my hanger I have a
little boot sticking out right there
that I need to take back to Costco coz
they don't fit and more craft crap that
I need to find a home for I think that's
it
my dad's just a wreck it is just a wreck
until I finish cleaning up that is what
I did today has just been going through
stuff and trying to organize and reput
things places where they need to go
because I am sick of my space not being
organized I can't handle it
aka I hang out in here half the time
because my house is so unorganized right
now and I really need to find energy to
start working on all of that because
it's just that's what I did pretty much
this afternoon and I sat and watched
some shows on my laptop I did some
Amazon shopping do any of you guys ever
find for plus-size errs do you guys ever
have a hard time or do you have a
certain go-to on your Amazon for like
long shirts for women my problem that I
am finding is that like okay so I will
type in like I clearly do not wear 6 and
7 X shirts anymore like they are really
big on me but I still go to those
because I think that's my comfort in my
mind like that's what I'm used to so
that's what I always type in but anyways
so I've ordered a couple of things from
Amazon in the past and I get them and
I'm just like ok this is supposed to be
a 7 X there's no way this is like a 2x
and it will say a 7 X on it and it's
like totally off and I'll look and I I
didn't know until just recently that it
will say like it will give like a
percentage of if it fits close to size
or whatever and anyways I found a white
long-sleeve that I bought from there a
few weeks ago and I absolutely love it
and it comes in tons of colors but
there's no colors available in my size
except for white black navy and grey
there's like 22 colors and those are the
only colors that are
available now I got a 5x in this shirt
and it probably fits like a 3x maybe a
4x but I mean it ain't no 5x but it does
cover really well my belly and stuff
like that so today I was like I really
am needing a couple of long shirts like
just regular long sleeve lightweight
sure that are plain colored because I
have printed shirts and those are very
cute but I can only wear basically black
leggings with them because they'd I
don't have like colored leggings if that
makes sense
other than printed colored leggings you
know so I don't have solid lanes except
for these ones I'll show you
excuse my big ol belly but I got these
actually these are torrid and I went up
to a size 6 and toured pants and I
bought these like three years ago and
these are a size 4 yeah a number 4 and
torrid but I haven't been able to learn
four to two years or so because they
were just too tight like too darn tight
so I put him away and they were actually
one of those bags to give away and like
two days ago
I happen to open up one of the bags
because I didn't rely for caught that I
had put those bags in the closet to give
away I was like oh my gosh I forgot I
even had these whom I wonder if I should
just check them and see because there
are four and the size six pants on the
leggings are getting really loose like
they're to the point where they're
starting I don't want to slip off of my
belly a little bit and I'm like this is
a great feeling but this is a scary
feeling because I'm not used to this and
so anyways I put him on and lo and
behold they fit me I was like oh hey I
like this so I took him out of the bag
so I'm like hey I'm gonna keep these um
so these are really my only solid
colored pair of leggings that I own
other than black and then I have other
leggings like the tear and sky leggings
but those have multiple different colors
in them so I can't like mix them with
the shirt so anyways I just needed some
solid shirts to go with my printed
leggings
so I found another company and I went
ahead and they were only $13.99 and I
got a 3x
I got a 3x and I am praying guys I'm
scared um I mean it's only $13.99 and I
can always send it back cuz it's got
free returns if it doesn't fit but I was
just like I'm gonna try it because if it
does fit then I will have multiple
colors that I can choose from from those
and they all are available in the 3x and
they have tons of colors to choose from
so I'm just trying this out and seeing
what it's like if they are gonna fit or
not and I'll go from there but I'm just
hoping and praying because by curvy
boutique those are really pretty shirts
too but majority of them are going for
like most of them about 25 to 33 dollars
and I just don't want to spend that much
money on it sure right now when I just I
just really don't want to spend that
much money
my kids are tearing each other up
anyways and so I was just curious like
if there's any brands that you guys go
to on Amazon that you guys have found
like clothes to actually fit you the
right way right okay can you wait until
your dad comes in to finish doing the
tour will you can vacuum the kitchen and
stuff with the hose anyways
I swore my kids were tough for me
anyways um I swear anyways if there's
any like brands that you guys go to on
Amazon that you have found them being
true to size I'm looking for anything
from Forex and up and the only reason I
say Forex and up is because I personally
like my shirts big I like them long and
that's just for my comfort and so for me
that's what I'm looking for so if
anybody has any ideas of things that you
guys find on Amazon that works for you
that are not like a norm in Oleg
because torrid towards fairly expensive
and I'm trying to stay away from taured
because of the price not that I don't
like their company I love their company
I love it a little too much but their
spin D and then women within and Romans
there are really good companies as well
but I haven't really found many shirts
that I care for that fit me properly now
I will say since I've been losing weight
I am finding their shirts to fall on me
better and they're starting to like be
loose on my stomach whereas when I was a
little bit bigger the size 6x was still
a little bit snug on my stomach
so it definitely showed my bottom
stomach and I don't like that you guys
already know that I hate showing my junk
so now though I do have a t-shirt that I
got from Romans I was here last month or
so and that's a six yes a 6x and it's
it's nice and big like it's it's big but
it's also longer on me because it's
bigger so I am enjoying that shirt from
Romans so I mean I could go back and
look at what they have but they have to
be at least 34 inches long and longer
for me to feel comfortable anything
shorter than that shows my junk and I
just can't go for that
because it's just too uncomfortable so
anyways yeah that's what I did this
afternoon as well as just kind of looked
on Amazon I'm looking at the leaked ads
on Black Friday just to see if there's
anything out there that catches my eye
we have three birthdays coming back to
back starting February because Omar's
birthday is February 7th S Rose is
February 29th which we celebrate at
March 1st and then Jeremiah's is April
12th
Ali's is April 12th mine's August 26 so
I'm further out I'm the only odd ball in
the family so but with the three kids
back to back with their birthdays I like
to kind of look and see what they have
on Black Friday
Jeremih not so much because he's really
kind of out of the whole Thai scene but
Omar and Ezra are still obviously in the
toy scene so when they have like really
good deals on toys and stuff I like to
snag him and put him away so that we'll
have those when their birthdays come
around so in Omar's so right now into
Legos and his racing cars his little Hot
Wheel cars
those are his jam like you give him
those and he will stay busy for hours
Esther aww she's really into art and
crafts right now like that is just
that's just her thing she loves arts and
crafts so I'm gonna really look and see
what they can what I can find for like
her for drawing and writing and stuff
like that you wouldn't think a
two-year-old would really want that but
she you give her a pen and paper and you
won't see her or talk to her for hours
because she will be in a corner
somewhere just having a hit field day
Omar on the other hand you give him a
pen and paper and he goes and sits
quietly ya better find out where he's
making a canvas because it will be on
the walls I don't know why that child
thinks he needs to graffiti my entire
house but I was sitting out on my chair
last night no it was this morning
actually I was
was sitting there with me and I just
having to look over and I was just
looked on my wall and I'm like that is
ridiculous because there's blue marker
all over my wall and I'm just like oh so
I need to get on that about getting that
marker off I mean he's already been
punished for it so it's not like you
know he needs to be punished for it but
he'll definitely pointed out and be like
this isn't this is no hon I said no
that's no no you want to go to timeout
for that no oh my god cuz you already
got timeout and you already been trouble
for it so but that doesn't stop him
because he still finds more space in my
walls to add another picture so anyways
well you guys I'm gonna go ahead and
close this vlog I am so tired and like I
said I'm just not feeling 100% so I
think it's gonna be an early bedtime for
me tonight as well because I'm just
really tired so I think I'm just gonna
take a chill tonight and I'm gonna go
take a hot hot hot shower and get my
kids in their nighties
pajamas what do you call them well as
far as a gala baya
and that's gone basically in air all for
what they call it so that's what she
sleeps in usually sometimes not just
depends on her mood sometimes she'll
want to wear regular clothes to bed and
I'm just like oh my god child come on I
go and buy you pajamas and you refuse to
wear him and then I'm not as Omar that
just absolutely has to sleep in his
night and his pajamas like that's just
his thing
Jeremiah sleeps in shorts and a t-shirt
he gets so hot at nighttime and even in
the brink of heat of winter he will
still be in shorts and me I don't care
how freezing cold it is I have to have a
couple blankets on me if that's what I
need but I have a fan on my body because
I can't I have to sleep with my fan but
anyways so I'm gonna go ahead and close
my vlog go see what is going on with my
kids out with the living room because
clearly they're fighting again as usual
like I said last night
sibling rivalry at the finest but
anyways I hope you guys enjoy today I
don't know what is planned again for
tomorrow because well we're the
Ramadan's and we never know what's up
our sleeve but until then you guys sweet
dreams so talk to you tomorrow
Popeye